Communication is everything. Always always tell people exactly how you feel, where you’re at in life, what you need assurance of, what questions you need answered. Communicate everything because anything and everything can be misinterpreted
(via girlandnewyork)
it took an entire summer break to realize how insane it is that by far the most important thing i learned from art school - is that i have suffered my whole life from borderline personality disorder. i learned this while working on a typography project.
oh but it taught me more than the fact that i’m not alone in my specific strangeness, even more than the fact that my number of problems since childhood has a general umbrella cause called bpd, which has been studied and researched for some time, and although the cause of it is unknown, it’s a curable disorder. it’s been more than an explanation as to why the fuck i can never choose just one musical genre, just one hobby, or just one dream career - it’s also taught me why my mother has given up on hers.
sometimes i catch myself in short moments of confusion and self hate and i have to think, dude, you’ve been through so much shit and you stayed so strong and hard working and full of love. just a few years ago you had those intense visions of killing yourself, look how far you’ve come. it’s a new kind of fear to have but i get to do whatever i truly want now. i get to do what’s good for me, i’m not used to this. i’m not used to noticing when something is bad for me, and then wanting to do something about it.
i’m sorry, i guess i’ve been so excited about feeling this much better,
i didn’t realize i was still lost, just less anxious about it.
